8 Months Today!

Wow. Again, where does time go?

My Sweet Pea is 8 Months today.

• saying Mamama (mostly when mad)
• saying Dadadada
• took 2 steps with a "baby walker"
• wants to "type" on the computer
• favorite toy is the remote control! (we gave her her own!)
• had her first "accident" in her car seat Friday :(
• not sleeping through the night again
• still not napping
  

Sweet Baby L.J.

Please pray for the parents of sweet baby L.J.

L.J. went to Jesus early this morning after after such a hard fight.

I am so heartbroken for this family.

I know they will continue to need your prayers.

I Never Thought It Would Happen!!!

People, (and by that I mean the 3 of you who read my blog :) ), a miracle has happened. I can't believe that Kate has taken a pacifier. I never thought it would happen.

She usually wants to nurse all the time. I am sooo looking forward to her taking a pacifier, which will help me out!

She has been doing well lately. We go tomorrow for 2 of her vaccines, and I am REALLY dreading that. I hate it.

She is getting better at sitting up, doing it without help now, and still hates tummy time!

More later!

Prayers Needed

I have a friend who gave birth Friday to her sweet little baby boy at 26 weeks.

PLEASE join me in prayer for this family.

Baby L.J. needs lots of prayers. Specifically right now, for his lungs and for a brain bleed.

Also, please lift his parents up in prayer for strength and peace.

Where Has Time Gone?

Wow! It's been a long time since I updated. My only excuse is I have been run ragged lately.

Our sweet little Kate turned 7 months on Sunday!!! 7 Months??? Where has time gone?

She is growing so fast. Just in the last week or 2 she has started to say Mamamama. It's soo cute! We weren't sure at first if that was what she was really saying, but now we are sure. Unfortunetly that also means I don't have an exact date to record for her first word. Kinda bummed about that, but there's nothing I can do about it!

The same happened with her rolling over. It just kinda morphed over time, so I don't know an exact date. (I guess I'll just pick one for the baby book :) )

Kate got her first cold this week, and I think she kicked it in 2 days.....right over to me, however. Not fun being sick when you have a little one!

I tried feeding her avocado tonight for the first time. She actually gagged!!! Needles to say, it did not go over well. I'll try again some other time.

So far she's had:

rice cereal
applesauce
prunes
pears
sweet potato
winter squash (didn't really like)
avocado (only once)
banana (only once)

I have backed off the solid food a lot lately, even though she LOVES to eat it. She's had a lot of issues with constipation (that's why we've started prunes...:) ) Not sure if the exclusive breastmilk has helped yet or not.

I'm going to make my second batch of homemade baby food this weekend. It's fun, and I can't believe how much cheaper it is!!! Seriously. Plus, I like knowing exactly what I'm feeding her.

I'm going to make more sweet potatoes because they are her favorite, red pears instead of green this time, and green beans. We'll see how the green beans turn out, that'll be a first.

Gotta go, done pumping and more than ready for bed!

Already 6 Months!

I can't believe my baby is already 6 months old! It's already going so fast!

She just started sitting up for a few minutes at a time this week, and is getting better at rolling over, but would be doing better if she could tolerate tummy time!

She still isn't napping. :(

But thank goodness she's so cute!

Boiling Point

I've been so blue lately. A lot of Henry on my mind.

It's weird how just when you think you're doing well, it hits you out of the blue, and really hard. Anyone else feel this way? Cried myself to sleep the other night, which thankfully I haven't done in a while. Just weird how it bubbles up. Little things trigger it, add up, and then I hit my boiling point.

Innocent words put together in an innocent order. Something so simple, and the feelings start to overwhelm. Memories, and pain from the realization that some of the memories are fuzzy.

I have to stop the what ifs. They don't help, but they keep sneaking in. I just really feel like I should have known something was wrong. I did suspect it, but ignored my "mother's intuition." I get so mad at myself.

Maybe I could have saved him. That's what haunts me. That's the one I can't let go.

It's overwhelming sometimes to realize this will be with me forever. I will always grieve my little boy. ALWAYS.

Is is it awful that sometimes I wish I could forget? And then other times I get so upset that somethings are fuzzy?

I am very much aware of how precious my time with Kate is. I want to soak it in. I told hubs last night, while Kate was laughing, smiling, and talking to us, that I wish I could bottle it. Or freeze time. I know this won't last forever, and it makes me so sad. I wonder what Henry would have sounded like, or looked liked when he smiled. Makes me appreciate Kate even more.

I can't get enough of her. Our babies are such a gift. Every new stage she gets to, I think, "this is the best age. This right here!" I hope it continues that way. (when she's 14? I don't know. :)

I know this post is a little "all over the place," but that's where my mind is lately. Just had to get some stuff out.